2020 · A question over tea
“Do you actually know what you really want?”
In 2020, over tea with a friend, my brother Nikolai asked a simple question: do you actually know what you really want? Our friend answered at once. I could not answer at all.
Then he read us both in a few sentences. For her, the deciding factor was recognition — to be seen and known. For me, it was solid ground: resources, security, something that holds. Years later, after rebuilding the system myself, I could name what he had seen: a Have logic under pressure.
That evening I wanted to know only one thing: how did he see it?